nothingnormal

In my bed Eyes red Thoughts of being dead racing through my mind Dreading what you just said Nearing my breaking point

Fake? You see this smile You hear this laugh You feel this hug FAKE Those aren't the feelings that are inside Constantly running through my mind The question is... When will I break? Because I have all these emotions bottled up inside I did all these things I wish I could just wipe away And no one is responsible Besides me When I look into life's mirror I see a girl Eyes red With a tear in her eyes The question is... Is this visual depiction Ever going to Go away?

A girl about to break Crying, ready to tear her hair out In the corner of the room Every night She's always alone...

I am not wha tyou think I am No long-legged dumb ass Whose only "talent" is beauty I'm not a flower that people stare at I don't play that role in the garden I'm the spider Building creative webs Hoping other creatures will admire them Then capturing them with the amazing details Don't look at my eight legs anymore So read these Stare at the paper You're good at that...

Please don't punish me like this Just let me sit and mourn by myself The pain is leaking from my eyes Let it all drip drip drip drip out of me But don't take my laughter with the pain I must not let the happiness escape Tic-toc tic-toc tic-toc DING It's too late There goes my euphoria Falling down to the bottom of the bucket SPLASH There is a wretched liquid surrounding my fallen joy What is this substance? Is it blood or is it my tears? I feel a breathtaking pain ahh, ahh, AHHH I will put holes in the permanent home of this pain Let it drain from my soul Swish swish swish Please hit the floor Rescue me quick I want

GOTH emotional, lonely crying, cursing, loitering satanic, suicidal                                   rich, perfect                                                     bragging, spending, strutting                                                     snotty, smart                                                      PREP